Before I started creating the cover, Saira and I had a lot of discussions. When we both talked about our idea for the cover, we described the same thing! Now, I had to put it on paper. This is all I had at first. So we decided to try a creative activity to get my cover going.
We used loose construction paper, scissors with different cutting edges, and glue. This gave me a way to add in color without having to erase it on my design if I didn't like it. I added a dresser. Obviously this isn't the final project but it lead me to the following beauty!
What I learned: Don't be scared to recreate your creations. You could end up with a better project at the end. This process should feel playful. I felt excited to see my final attempt. It was much more creative than what I expected. I really think that the activity Saira suggested helped. Not done yet! More steps still to come...
I felt pressure to come up with something creative and catchy. Something that no one else has ever done before. Such a simple task ended up taking days. The title. How could I get someone to pick up my book just by the title? I tried to make my book sound more than it was. I wanted the title to be so extravagant that I had forgotten my audience. I asked Kevin, my school Mentor, for help.
"How about 'The Zoo Behind Closed Doors'?"
Instantly, I was happy. I thought that sounded so extravagant. As I soon I saw Saira the next time, I quickly, told her. Saira pondered it for a minute before responding.
"I like that title. I want it to be more true to yourself, to your book, and especially, true to your story. It can be something simple like Cheyanne's Zoo."
I needed to hear that. I felt a lot of pressure with coming up with a title that would interest everyone. I forgot, my book isn't for everyone. I had to accept that was okay. You can't please everyone. In the end, ultimately I need to be happy with my product. The title stuck and I'm so happy it did.
Saira suggested to storyboard to help the creative process. What is storyboarding? At the time, I had no idea. Saira had to explain,
"You come up with how many pages you would like in your book. Draw them out. 2 pages side by side. Then you can either bullet point what you want on each page or draw and write them out. Drawing and writing them out might be easier to do, so you have an idea on what the book will look like."
We decided on 20 pages. Maybe a little over. I was nervous but I didn't understand why. I had my story. I know how it happened. All I had to do was write it out. Then I noticed, it wasn't the writing that had me feeling uneasy. While I was storyboarding, I noticed that I did my writing portion first. Once I completed the writing, I felt stuck. The drawings were haunting me. What if the audience doesn't like them? I scribbled down some stick figures and objects with color. Feelings of being disappointed overwhelmed me. This wasn't what other authors had in their picture books. I was definitely not Picasso. Saira noticed,
"You can't compare your book to others. This is your story. You get to decide how you want it to look. This is practice. Let go of society's idea of perfection and enjoy what you do."
At first, that was so hard for me. I wanted my book to be something I could be proud of. Then I realized, this IS something I can be proud of! I stepped outside my comfort zone in order to deliver a message to the next generation and discover something about myself. I can be creative, and so can you!
The first step you learn in writing is creating a solid outline. Saira helped me by describing what every children's book needs. It needs to send across a message. Not just once, preferably three times. A children's book should be short and sweet to keep their attention. You have to always keep your audience in mind. A children's book should have a happy ending. We want to try to teach them consequences but also keep their innocence. We started the outline with those concepts in mind. Then, we walked through my zoo story once more. I created a small title for each page to remind myself of what would be on each page of the book. I noticed that as she talked, it helped to take notes. So I scribbled down some last minute thoughts at the end of the page as you can see. For me, it helped to start with the final picture in mind. I didn't want to feel lost in this creative tunnel. I wanted to know where this was going to take me. Just remember, the tunnel can lead you on different paths. Follow what feels comfortable. Work should be enjoyable not a chore.
On my second day with Saira, I focused on the outcome. What am I going to get from this internship? How can I learn and use this? Most importantly, what can I create to show my school what I learned? We came up with a couple of ideas on how we could move some existing books-in-progress along.
During one of our get-to-know-me sessions, we shared some personal stories. One that really stuck out to Saira was my zoo story. I was shocked. My silly story was interesting? To me, it seemed so ordinary and boring.
"Why don't you make a book? One good way to learn the process is for you to experience it yourself." Saira said.
That stuck out to me. That moment felt surreal. Me? Create a book? A 16-year-old high school student? Questions flooded my mind. Who would want to read something I wrote? I'm not interesting. What would my book even be about? How do I start one? Saira sensed my confusion. She chuckled.
"Your zoo story. The one you told me the other day. That would make a great book for children." She explained.
I was starstruck. I was excited and so nervous. This is something I've always dreamed of and imagined. I never thought it would be a real experience. I get to write my own book! Nervously, I agreed. This was outside of my comfort zone. To be quite honest, I didn't think I had it in me. I was not an english major nor a popular adult author. I was just a normal teenage girl. Now, I'm a teenage girl writing a book. Saying that out loud made my stomach have butterflies.
Introducing ... our amazing new intern, Cheyanne Dodge!